This post was made for facebook but
I wanted to post this on this account since my main account is blocked so I’m using this for a month and I don’t want to be friends with the wrong sort of people or people who are going to upset me on this account either.
so here’s the original post, and this photo is several months old and unfortunately i’m a bit more scarred than this now, especially my legs, but I still feel the same way. Just wanted to say I’m here for anyone who would like to message me about anything, and if they ever feel like hurting themselves, do not do it, it’s not worth it, it’s never ever worth it. I’m not very good at advice but I can give you other ideas of things to do instead of hurting yourself, or numbers to call, websites to go and I can listen if you need to talk to someone. Cutting yourself, or any other form of self destruction is not the road to go down, I promise, trust me. It’s never worth it, ever.
And even though I don’t feel I need to hide my scars anymore, I still feel self conscious A LOT and I know they’re not pretty or anything to be proud of in the slightest, but they’re me. And always will be part of me. And it took me years and years to get to this point. And other people who have self harm scars shouldn’t be afraid, it’s ok to have scars, and you don’t have to hide them, if someone judges you on your scars then you definitely do not want that person in your life any way, so fuck them. People should never be ashamed, or feel they have to hide their scars, and people who have self harm scars should be allowed to wear the same clothes as other people, just because you have scars on your legs for example, doesn’t mean you can’t wear shorts like your other friends.
Because every scar is reminder you’re still alive.
Literally in tears from writing this and feel nervous posting this paragraph again but just trying to make a point and help other people.
**I’m here for anyone who would like to message me, about mental illness, self harm, scars, someone close to you dying, moving out at a young age, housing, abuse, bullying since I know about and have been through these things but seriously message me about anything really, anything at all. I’m 20 next month btw not sure if that’s relevant but I do have a quite a bit of life experience I guess. So message me. **
And I’d stay up all night talking to someone if it saved them from hurting themselves, even just once. Either message me on here, or on my blog http://zixxie.tumblr.com/
Original post from August 2013:
Not really sure what people are going to make of this, but I usually spend ages trying to edit my scars and self harm out of my pictures, but here’s one unedited, it’s been 8 years since I started and even though I’ve come a long way from wearing long sleeve tops all year round so no one would find out, didn’t really get me anywhere, hiding it from people who cared, but still now I find it hard not to feel the need to try to hide who I am. But I figure if somebody is going to judge me for my scars then I don’t want them in my life anyway.
(Spent about 15 minutes with my heart racing just getting the confidence to click the ‘post’ button, fuck)
thought i’d just add on the end here, i have the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, and have suffered with depression and anxiety in the past.
Thank you if you read this, feel free to remove me as a friend if you need to after reading this.